If you could hear some of the conversations I have with Jesus, you might think I am crazy. But that's what intimacy with another person is for: you tell that person everything that is on your heart. No exceptions.
It blows my mind when He answers me with a Scripture I have read in the past, or when I can simply hear (sense) His voice in my Spirit.
A few nights ago, I was feeling badly about certain parts of my past and within minutes, I could feel Him reminding me of Isaiah 43: 18-19. "Do not earnestly remember the former things: neither consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing. Now it springs forth: do you not perceive and know it and will you not give heed to it? I will even make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert." Immediately, I knew that He was letting me know that I should never look back. He was saying that something new is in the future, so I should keep looking ahead at Him. Wow.
Recently, I have felt like He is leading me to write my own songs, but I have doubted my ability to do this. One night, while I was sitting at my computer, He said, "Angi, a painting does not just appear on a canvas. It takes the artist months or sometimes years to create it. So, go create." I cannot begin to tell you how this very simple statement motivated me. I knew that He was saying the songs would not come to me overnight, but that I must spend time developing them and it would be worth it.
Last year, when He told me to start writing more seriously, I also then doubted myself because I had no best-seller ideas. He spoke to me by saying, "Angi, the people in the Bible were no different from you, but they knew they must record what was happening to them..." I was so moved by this statement because I grew up thinking the characters in the Bible were super-human, perfect figures. I have since come to understand that they were, in fact, just like you and me and yet God used so many of them in absolutely amazing ways. I desire for Him to use my life in this way as well.
I could go on and on, but it's getting late and I need my rest. The point is, Jesus Christ is personal. He knew you before you were born, formed you in your mother's womb, and has the number of hairs on your head counted....so never be fooled into thinking you can't take every issue, emotion, celebration, and defeat to Him and talk with Him about it. Furthermore, you'll be amazed when you begin to hear Him speak back to your spirit. There is no greater friendship in this life.
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