My Soul is Stirring

I'm on fire tonight. Call me restless. I don't know exactly how to explain it, but I will say this: I am not satisfied with the thought of living an 8-5 life stuck in a pattern of paying bills...and doing it all over again the next day, and the next day...

Do I hate my job? Not at all!! It's one of the best corporations I've ever worked for in my life, and I truly enjoy the office and my role each day. And actually, God told me to go work there last year because there might be someone I needed to meet. This has most certainly proven true; He has blessed me with many friends at this particular job!

But I still continue to experience a stirring in my soul. It's as if I know I was created for something else, and I can feel myself getting closer to it, although I don't know exactly what it is, where it is, or when it will come to fruition. The Lord has given me hints, but there are still pieces of the puzzle He's keeping in the box up on a shelf that I cannot ever reach without His permission and assistance.

A few nights ago, I listened to Pastor Adrian Rogers speak on the Wilderness, the Jordan River, and the Promised Land (from Joshua 3). I also found a great explanation of this at http://interruptingthesilence.com/tag/jordan-river/ if you want to check it out for yourself. What I got out of both Pastor Rogers and this website was this: once we get out of the wilderness, we have to cross the river in order to get to the promised land. As I said earlier, it's like I can see the promised land ahead - the pieces of the vision God has given me. I believe I'm out of the wilderness, but now I have to cross the river first, which may be calm and shallow at times or it may be deep, turbulent and seemingly impossible. Such are life's circumstances as we flow through them.

Additionally, God continues to bring the story of Abraham to my spirit. God called him away from his comfort zones in order that He could begin to reveal His Will to Abraham for his life. Abraham took matters into his own hands to a point, but God didn't stop loving him and He still stayed faithful to make Abraham a father of many nations as He had originally promised!

I have always been a dreamer. Today, the Holy Spirit said to me: 'He knows you have big dreams - not mediocre desires - in your spirit. He put them there and He will bring them to pass, in His timing.'

So, I'm going to keep dreaming big, every day. I can't wait to look back in five or ten years (sooner would be nice!) and be able to see that God did exactly what He said He would do! The best part will be an opportunity to witness to others about it!

Keep the faith, my friend! He has big plans for you (Jeremiah 29:11) if you stay faithful to His leading! Jesus rocks!